two extreme feelings at once

This past season has been paradoxical for me in the feelings department. I got engaged to my friend of seven years just two days after my mother died. These are the two women who have believed in me the most. These are the two women I love the most.
I have never been so happy and sad at the same time. Strangely, it's a human honor to go through this: grief and joy intertwined. I'm spending my days saying goodbye to my mom and preparing to spend the rest of my life with Joy.
I find, though, that they each take much work on my part, and they each require community to go through. I just can't do this all alone. Truthfully, it's an honor to learn such things. I hope I learn the lesson, honoring these two beautiful women.